1:48am 5/09/25

Sleepless Grind

I’ve been trying to fall asleep since 12:30 AM. I dozed off for maybe 20 minutes, then woke up out of nowhere. No reason. Just wide awake.

First thing on my mind? What bills are due soon.

Then I thought about the gym. When was the last time I worked out? It’s been four days. I’ve got to workout tomorrow.

The room’s too hot.

What time do I stream tomorrow?

What segment are we doing?

Oh man! Mother’s Day is coming. I need to get flowers. A card. Something thoughtful.

Two years ago I could sleep like a baby. My mind would go quiet. Everything would slow down. Now I feel like I’m always on. Always grinding. I don’t know how to shut it off.

It’s weird, but when I was depressed, I slept better than I do now. I guess having goals comes with this constant pressure. I used to have peace. Now I have drive. And sometimes, that keeps me up more than anything else.

It’s 1:58 AM.

Anyone else feel this way?





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